Gosh...it is just a few days to say hello to final exam. I calculated myself and I realize that I don't have time to make fun anymore. Hurm..it is not fair to say "fun" but prefer to use a word " relax."
Study..study study.... I start to study at 2.pm and finished up my "brain torture" at 3.am. It doesn't mean that I study without taking a rest. I only took atleast 2 hours to get some rest, having whatsoever called 'supper' and lepaking with my comrades.
Just in time when I having dinner just now with my collegues, my cousin called me. Guest who, our big boss Fahmi. Ask me anything he can do for me if I go back to my home sweet home. No thanks. I really do appreciate his willing to help me, but better I do it of my own.
Things happend so damn fast since the last farewell to 2005. Mood swing, brain torture, other things to remember, headache - all everything starts to come out during this unconditional time. It's ok coz I can manage this things (soo far) but I maked my priority which one to settle down first. Make list and see it. Yes..that is my kind of method when playing out with the situation.
Again. I'm toasted. Still counting myself to prevents from suffering from all that kind of stuffs and problem. And then, I come out with some idea that hopefully can help me. My advice from me to me which I maked myself and hopefully this kind of 'mitos' things can help me.
Well, guest what, I'm pulling myself in a good way now. Being a soo much determine person since I realize that I could get up myself. All problems are went away. Three to go. Just three. Geezz.....I found myself that I need someone to talk to. I admit that since last time (August 05 I think), I had alot of friends to share prob with. But things had change when something had happned and again, I realize that the time when we have a good such relationship and all everything we call brotherhood is just only a memories and I tell myself that won't be same again. We are on own our way now.
Tell me, did I say wrong when I said that things can change really fast when something happen soo damn fast? Nope, it has prove just in front of me. I'm always aware about this and totally it happens to me. Everything going fast and everything changes soo damn fast. Only God knows why and who.
As I told to that person, we can't be same again as before. Never and no more. Coz for what happened last time, we had to encounter some egoistic problem and sudently it just end like that - all sweet memories, chill out time and alot of things we did together. I don't know who's got to be blame. Me ? Maybe me. And the blame thingy, I am a part of it. Coz I change a lot. But it is not only me. Think for your ownself.
Life is not easy if you are trying to make it complicated. Make your life as comfortable as you can, enjoy your life, chill out, make make more friends and less enemies. Well, I'm quite happy with my life rite know not just because I have someone to love and to be love, but I had alot of friends with me. I don't care anymore whos are giong to remember me as his/her friend. I don't care anymore. The thing is, for what reason we had to remember them if they can't remember us as a friend for a just one second.
Despite for all everythings happened in my life soo far (since last 4 months), I can still survive. Coz I'm not kind of a weaky freaky guy. Yes. I'm too behave with swank? Nope. Coz that is really who I am. I'm so grateful because I didn't think too much about the things happened. Just let it go like the wind and by the time, you won't suffer. And I am grateful because that is my strength that God give to me. Like my father. Hopefully.
Life is a joke. When you laugh, you will make yourself happy. And for a that happy thing you know, you will don't remember them cause since the past are running away from you, you will laugh again. You will enjoy with the jokes and if you want they to lugh your joke, learnt from it and make a joke soo that they can laugh. That is the life it is.
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