What truns up is turning down....

I was amazed and shocked when I saw her kissing with the other women just in front of me. Yeap..it is no in a "Broke Back Mountain Movie in Lesbian version" but it is a live broadcast just in front of me. OMG....

I was just went back from the hell class ( oo yes..CCNA class is tougher from what I imagine) at 10:30p.m...feeling so hungry even my stomach can fell pain. Went down to KFC near Sunshine Square, and I saw her kissing with other women. From what I can understand, she's a perfect women, ordinary but not " Perempuan Melayu terakhir' version if you expected so. But at least she's a straight women. I had seen her before with other guy ( Yess..I said guy which means MAN !) and I know that they are couples but I don't expected her having a sexual interest for women.

What's the wrong with the world right now !!?? Did everything turned up? Yess..kiamat sudah tiba and we should know that. Peoples always said that we should understand and respect them because its not their fault to be gay/lesbian or what so ever they called it. But in nature it is a reverse side of what humanity interest in terms of sexuality and socialism where the same gender have a sexual interest each other. Islam denied this kind of relationship and I believe most of the countries are forbid this relationship in terms of enforcing the law or what so ever they do.

I can accept them for what they are. It doesn't means that it is a 'Yes' answer for doing something in public but as long as you can respect the community around you, it is okay for me.
But deep in my I'll pray for them to change. I know they always said " Nature turns us what we become and only natures can give back what we don't have'

I have so many friends around me that you can called them 'gay' or 'lesbian'. I respect them as society respect them because they are human like us and we have a right make a social relationship with other human. As long as there is border line between us, it would be okay for me. It is not me who sets the rules. But it a came from a force by nature. Respect people and people will respect you.


p/s: madhatter..'she' is not our officemate, she is the other women I saw yesterday and please don't make confused.

Some moron ask me to answer this questionare..so..here it is..

1. Have you played/imagined playing a musical instrument in your birthday suit?
Yes. Almost of the time when my birthday comes.

2. What is your preference of music?
Rock, Pop, RnB. I could mix will all kind of music. Depends on my mood.

3. What is your definition of "a night out partying"?
Hanging out with my comrades, having a good night meal/supper and chill out!!

4. What kind of music do you like dancing to?
Pop.

5. Which celebrity would you compare yourself to?
Don't have one. I just like to be myself. ;)

6. What is your favorite food?
Kari kepala ikan and a hot soup. Yummm....

7. Would you leave your job to join a rescue mission in a foreign country without any media coverage?
Yeahh..it's a good things to do so. But it is a quite risky rite?

8. What is the most embarassing situation you've ever been in?
I accidently sit on a dirty chair at mamak's and my friends thought I poo in my pants because of the dirts stick at behnd my ass !!!

9. What is the worst thing you've ever made someone do?
I scratch my friends car and she thought somebody else did it. And she scolded that person. Aiyaa...

10. If you had one day to be someone else, who would you be and why?
My dad probably because he can went home early in afternoon without worrying his boss attention.

11. Describe your job in 3 words.....?
A lousy job

12. Describe yourself in 3 words....?
Simple real human.

13. what is most important to you in a women's physical appearance ?
The way she carries herself. Confident but humble, got pretty eyes, love to smiles, sporting and social.

14. what do you think women find hot about you? have you been told about it before?
I don't exactly know. They always keep that kind of secret !!

15. When you are home alone what kind of music do you dance to?
It depend on how I'm feeling and doing. Most probably funk, RnB, Rock and pop.


16. Name 3 favorite local bands that you think is good to compete in the international market?
Tempered Mental, Seven Colar Tshirt and Pop Shuvit


17. What is more important to you.. Love? .. Money? and why?
This has to be a trick question. Love when there's no money and money when there's no love.

18. What is the very first thing you do when u wake up?
I'll relief my muscle, go for a pee and watch my face..the rest, I'll let you to imagine.

19. What is the mystery behind your hair?
Nothing really.

20. What would you do if you were invisible for a day?
Look in the mirror. It will be an awesome for me to figure out which part of my body I'm looking at.

21. What's the sexiest part of your body?
My ears probably. Don't make it fools you. It is 30% part of my head and I can move my ears foward and backward without touching it. Ha...

22. Who would you save while escaping a sinking ship - your cat, your girlfriend or your phone?
That's an easy one. Throw the cat on bard. They can swim by themself. Grab my girlfriend and jump. She can swim. My handphone? Who needs it at the middle of the ocean?


23. Why did the skeleton cross the road?
Because it has nothing to do?

24. What is the very last thing you do before falling asleep?
I'll listen to slow musics. The music will make me falling asleep.

Deejavu is the love.....(?)

Aku rasa mcm tak percaya apa yg jadi kat aku. Mcm dejaavu plak. Last 2 weeks, aku pegi kat sekolah aku. Sekolah rendah tempat aku berlajar dulu. Sekolah yg banyak kenangan kat aku . Kat situlah aku berlajar bab cinta monyet ni. Hekss...series. Aku dulu tak reti bab-bab cinta ni apetah lagi bab bab couple ni. Nak jadikan cerita, 'first love' (?) aku masa aku darjah 5. Masa tu aku kelas 5 Jingga. Kelas aku ni kire kelas yg top dalam darjah lima. Masa tu aku jadi penolong ketua pengawas.

Aku kenal dengan sorang awek ni. Yg bestnya dia setahun lebih tua dari aku. Dia darjah enam masa tu. Aku tak tau mcm mana, aku boleh gak minat kat awek ni .Masa tulah aku baru berlajar bab-bab cinta monyet ni . Aku kenal dia masa hari sukan sekolah.

Hebat....first love aku je dah setahun lebih tua dari aku. Haha..mmg lawak. Aku minat awek ni sebab aku suka tgk dia. Masa tu aku tak reti nak dating. Jgnkan kata dating, nak jumpa pun aku takut. Yg best nya masa aku nak ngorat awek ni, aku adalah mintak tlg kat kawan aku. Sorang budak sengal dari kelas aku. Nama dia Ikramula. Dia ni mmg jenis kamcing gakla ngan aku. Dari start loceng bunyi sekolah sampailah loceng terakhir utk balik sekolah mmg kami akan sentiasa bersama. Yg bestnya dia ni mmg jenis bendul. Masa tu aku nak bagi tau kat awek ni yg aku suka dia. Si Ikram ni bagilah cadangan tulis surat cinta kat awek ni .

Aku dengan gelabah, tulis surat cinta. Yg aku pelik, boleh pulak aku amik buku latihan aku(tak silap aku buku latihan pemahaman bahasa melayu), guna pen merah, aku draft kat last page buku tu. Punyalah panjang. Aku tak ingat isi karangan tu. Yang pasti budak sengal member aku nilah punya isi karangan. Konon nak tulis ayat romantik. Aku belasah je tulis. Lepas edit beberapa kali, dari 2 perenggan, jadi setengah perengan je. Aku tulis kat satu kertas, dengan pen merah tugak, siap ada liquid paper lagi. Aku kirim kat member aku ni .

Awek yg aku minat ni kelas 6 Biru. Banggunan sebelah. Aku cakap kat member aku ni suruh bagi masa time rehat. Sebab member aku ni mmg kenal ngan awek ni. berjiran gak la. Yg sengal..masa member aku ni pi toilet, sekali plak dia kirim surat tu kat awek ni. Yg tak tahan tu dia siap ketuk pintu kelas mintak izin kat cikgu tgh mengajar nak jumpa dengan awek ni. Aduilaa.....skema giler member aku ni . Mcmla time rehat tak boleh bagi.

2 minggu lepas aku kirm surat tu, aku tak dapat berita dari awek ni. Yg pasti, sepanjang 2 minggu tu aku mmg nak elak dari bertembung dengan awek ni sebab aku mmg rasa malu. yerlahkan..mana tau kot2 dia reject aku, aku je nak tersengih-sengih kat dia. Kan malu tu.

Masuk minggu ke-3, aku dapat surat. Masa tu aku ada pendidikan jasmani. Kawan dia kirim surat kat aku.

jeng..jeng..jeng..suspen ni. Masa aku bukak surat tu, aku mmg takut. Excited pun ada.
Punyalah panjang dia tulis. Aku sendiri tak faham. Dalam surat tu dia kata dia nak kawan dengan aku. Aku tak faham istilah 'kawan' yg dia maksudkan. Yg buat aku terharu sebab dia kata 'terima kasih sebab awak sudi kawan dengan kita'. Perghh...masa tu..aku rasa seronok sgt.
Date pertama aku masa jumpa dia masa kokurikulum hari sabtu. Aku 'dating' dengan awek ni kat depan klinik gigi sebab kat situ mmg best. Kecik-kecik dah pandai date dah. Yg aku ingat aku belikan teh ais bungkus kat dia. Ahaha..kire aku belanja la. Padahal tu duit makan aku hari tu. Aku sendiri tak makan.

Aku kawan dengan awek ni sampailah dia pindah sekolah lepas dia amik UPSR. Sepanjang aku date dengan awek ni, aku mg rasa best sgt sebab aku ada kawan baik bagi aku dia mmg baik, sebab sepanjang aku kawan dengan dia, takdak lansung perbezaan umur antara aku dengan dia. Masa tu aku konpius gak sebab aku tak faham yg aku ni couple ke kawan baik dengan dia. Yg pasti kami mmg rapat. Termasuk dengan kawan baik aku yg sengal tu. Raya 2 kali aku dah singgah rumah dia. Besdey dia, aku dah bagi hadiah. Pensil kaler. Mahal beb. Aku tipu mak aku yg aku nak beli utk aku. Padahal aku nak hadiah kat dia. ahahaha..tau dek mak aku..sampai sekarang ada parut tapak kaki kat perut aku.

Sampailah aku last jumpa dia, masa tu hujung tahun. Tahun 1992. Dia dah abis darjah 6. Nak masuk tingkatan satu dan tunggu result UPSR. Aku selalu telefon dia gak kat rumah. Masa result keluar, dia dapat 3A 1B. Dia dapat berlajar kat Sek. Men. St Georges. Aku plak masih darjah 6. Masa tu kami dah jadi renggang sebab masin2 buat hal sendiri.

Sampailah 2 minggu lepas.....

Aku singgah kat sekolah lama aku sebab nak jumpa guru besar. Aku sapa seorang cikgu perempuan yg kebetulan ada kat office. Masa aku tgh sembang dengna cikgu nilah baru aku dapat tau yg dialah awek yg aku kenal dulu. Yg aku pernah minat dulu. Memula aku tak perasan dia. Lepas dia kata dia ex sekolah ni, batch tahun bila nama apa...then barulah aku tau. Aku try refresh balik pasal kisah aku dengan dia. Selambe je.

Dia mmg terkejut dan terus gelak. Dia tak percaya dapat jumpa aku balik. Based on caerita dia, lepas dia abih SPM dia sambung kat UPM amik cikgu. Lepas grad dia kena pindah kat Pahang, then balik Penang mengajar kat sekolah lama dia. Sekarang ni dia dah kawin. Husband dia jadi pilot TUDM kat Sg. Besi.

Awek yg aku kenal ni mmg dah berubah. Makin lawa aku tgk. Tapi aku respek dia sebab dia kenal lagi aku. Yerlah kitorang takdelah nak malu sgt borak pasal hal lama kitorang sebab mende tu cuma cinta monyet. Lagi pun aku dah lupa pasal dia. Sempat jugak aku mintak no tel dia. As a friend, dia mmg baik. Mcm dulu gak. Jenis tak banyak cakap. Senyuman dia mmg manis. Sebabtu lah aku minat kat dia dulu. Sekarang ni dah jadi isteri org (melepas aku.....~~).

Kadang-kadang aku terpikir gak, takdir aku yg jumpa dia kat sekolah tu, dan takdir aku gak jumpa dia balik hampir selepas 16 tahun aku jumpa dia balik kat sekolah yg sama. Aku anggap dia sebagai kawan aku. Dia ada gak ajak aku dtg rumah dia next month. Sebab dia dengan husband dia buat kenduri. Kenduri kesyukuran sebab husband dia nak balik dari Russia. Insyaallah jika tiada aral melintang aku akan sampai.

Mungkin dia tak tau, kertas yg aku tulis kat muka surat belakang masa aku nak hantar 'surat cinta' tu..aku masih simpan sehingga hari ni. Sebab itulah kenangan 'first love' aku......

Improve version !!!

Ha...ni blog aku yg aku dah improve sket. Sebelum ni aku dapat gak feedback dari kengkawan aku termasuk anonymous visitor yg bagi tau blog aku ni tak beberapa compatible dengan Musang Api ( Mozilla Firefox la !). Soo aku dah buat sket beberapa perubahan besar termasuk merombak semua ahli kabinet dan exco source code aku. Kalau korang perasan, ade gak certain function and display yg aku dah tak letak. Still blog ni masih boleh di akses melaui Internet Explorer dan OPera.

Memandangkan aku dah penat sgt buat source code baru ni, mungkin ade gak bug yg tak dapat dielakkan. Kalau korang terjumpa dengna bug tu, korang bunuh dengan ridsect oke. Kalau malas gak, bagi tau je kat aku. Aku taulah nak wat camne ngan bug tu. Ape2pun..korang pikirlah sendiri !!!!..

Something In My Mind....

I was just listening to this song in the radio. Wow...it really touch my hearts and make me think of something that happens in my life in a few months. This song was sing by Anuar Zain, the famous male singer in Malaysia and the song called 'Ketulusan Hati'.

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Its rainning yesterday. I love rain. Despite of have a good feeling to sleep on a soft cozy pillow, rain makes me relax and freedom. Since the last meeting with the whole group of 'RF' team, I was down to earth, feels that for a nothing I had done I just a miserable for the whole group. I don't have and intension to share with people in blog but the thing is, it getting fuck up by a some people of the team ( maybe i'm one of them) and the whole team get suffer.

Hey..who cares now. Its is not me the only one who need to answer to the superior, the whole team will take all that kind of responsibility especially the leads.

I wish I can tell the world why I am not in the right kind of mood to blog my usual blog ramblings. I don't usually tell my problems to people and so far I've managed to seal it well in me. This has always been my way but maybe it is too much for me to handle this time around. It is very complicated and dealing with someone who is stubborn and deaf can be really annoying. How do you penetrate the unshakable belief which is totally outrageous and nonsense ? How true can truth be when it is ? No one knows.....

I wish too that I can mange to solve all kinds of mess as soon as possible. Only to Allah I rely...and myself will try to 'ikhtiar' on something that I can try atleast there is a chance...