The last kick from this week

"I freak people out...so stay away from me!!..."

I guess that is the best thing to describe me (at this moment). I'm officially move from another phase of my life to another new phase of chapter that I'm eager to take care off. This is a reason why I'm very alert from any chance to pull me out from what I choose for.

There are a lot of things happens a past few day. From Pulau Batu Putih issues (which I'm not agreed with decision from ICJ..of course I'm Malaysian) until the news from Malaysiakini about the big issue Dr. M has pulling out from UMNO.



It is hard to believe that Pulau Batu Putih belongs to Singapore at last. Since a thousand years I believe, the white island has been in our maritime border and we have right to that island. Well the thing is, we have to accept for what decision they had make and indeed it is a damn hard thing to accept it is no longer belongs to us. There is a big talk in warung and kedai mamaks especially from pakcik-pakcik and kampung politican. Pulau Batu Putih is just a couple of miles from Johore. It seems not logic to accept Pulau Batu Putih belong to Singapore. But the decicion had been made and we have to respect that decision. I believe, with the integrity and experience from the the government, we have to admit again they will take care of what happens in a good manners. I'm always keep in trust at them especially in terms of defence and security.

I'm shocked when I heard our Dr. M had annouce to pull out from UMNO since almost 50 years he became a member. I'm not in UMNO but I believe as a loyal to his party it is a hard decision he had made so far and he have the reason why to pull out from UMNO. It is a high profile politic issues sometimes to understand for person like us. But they have their own reason. All the best for you, Chedet. There is a space to muhasabah and musyawarrah together and I believe that there are always a cure for that problem. Whatever it goes, there is a way. Always have.

Ohh yes, I'm just finish my kursus perkahwinan today. Woww...I don't believe that by the last moment of not expecting and not interested take the course in a short time, I just took it !!
Haha...well, half part from my feeling proud for what I had done in my to=do list' in this years, there is another problems that I have to take care of. Again, i can't tell you here. It is still PNC.

I just met with my cousin a few hours a go. Watching a live broadcast formula 1 race in Monacco at mamak stall. For a 3 years I'm not seen her around here, I just got news from her that she will get married in a few months in Australia. Quite shock for me and it is hard to believe that she will take that way to settle up her problems. I told her, married is not a solve. Maybe there is a pressure from certain people ask her to get married ASAP. But at least, she have something to rely on somebody when she's alone there.

ENDS~~~

veteran vs pemuda....

Amaran: Posting ini tiada kena mengena dengan yang mati. Melibatkan yang hidup sahaja termasuk yang hampir-hampir nak mati.


Buat sakit hati aku bila aku duduk bersembang dengan beberapa puak veteran kat rumah aku ni. Siapa puak veteran tu, biar aku dan mereka saja yg tahu. Biasalahkan bila aku lepak dengan diorang ni, macam-macam hal yg diorang borakkan. Bab politik, agama, sosial....mcm mcm lagilah. Tak ubah mcm sesi dewan parlimen yg aku tengaok dalam TV tu. Siap ada pihak pembangkang. Cuma yg aku terkilan kat dewan parlimen ni majoriti 2/3 masih belum cukup kuat untuk mematahkan hujah puak pembangkang yg sedia ada lebih bersikap tengok dan angguk je.

Masing-masing ada idea masing-masing. Yang old school parti dengan idea lapuk mereka ( tak semua lapuk), ada jugak dengan pemikiran ekstrimis mereka ada jugak yang masih menekan nilai-nilai psikologi gak. Pergh..mmg aku respek...

Kaum pemuga lagilah. Jenis pendiam. Tgk je apa kaum veteran ni cakap. Termasuk aku gak la. Malas nak menyampuk sebab org tua tgh bersembang. Lagi pun kaum pemudalah yg peranannya mcm pembangkang. Tak cukup 2/3 majoroti. Soo..nak safe play..diam jelah...

Yang aku hangin sangat, bila satu isu timbul pasal saingan dengan orang luar ni. Aku fahamlah mereka ni org veteran. Jenis banyak makan garam ( sebab tu ramai yg ada kes darah tinggi kat situ). Tapi jgn lah terlalu kolot dengan pemikiran kita sendiri. Aku bukannya tak hormat mereka ni. Mereka nilah antara pioneer dalam taman aku ni. Tapi kenalah ikut peredaran zaman.

Aku menyampuk gak diorang ni cakap. Kebetulan bab kerja kat oversea sebab adalah sorang ahli veteran ni cerita pasal anak dia nak keje kat oversea. Tak silap aku lah dia nak kene transfer kat South Africa. Bahagian offshore marine ni sebab kompany dia hantar 2 tahun kat sana.

Yg aku tensennya dia tak bagi anak dia tu keje kat sana sebab alasan ??? Kej kat sana jauh..lagi pun kat sana keje kasar..tak boleh lawan ngan mat saleh badan besar. Diorang keje stok ganas-ganas (Ape..ingat mat saleh tu makan besi ke sambil keje?). Aduihhla..apela punya sengal pakcik ni. Aku pun cakaplah balik. Pakcik tak boleh cakap mcm tu sebab sekarang ni keje kat oversea ke...sama saja. Gaji mmg masyuk..satu lagi..dah ada peluang..amikla peluang yg ada nak berlajar pasal tempat org..tgk sket kat tpt org lain mcm mana.

Senang cakap banyak jugaklah aku cakap. Pakcik tu diam je. Tgk aku mcm dia tu besar sangat dari aku. Lepas tu dia diam terus. Punya kerek member-member pakcik ni backing dia. Yang aku nampak sorang sekor pun yg backing dia pun takde hujah. Main cakap je sebab konon nak tutup malu kawan diorang ni.

Kekadang aku terpikir gak...agaknya dengan pemikiran kolot mereka ni, boleh ke bangsa kita sendiri maju? Kenapa bangsa kita lambat nak maju dari bangsa lain?? Sebab kerana org yg mcm ni lah. Katak duduk bawah tempurung. Dahlah bawah tenpurung..tempurung tu sendri bawah tempayan (malang sungguh tempayan sebab dia takde kena mengena dalam story ni) Adeke bagi alasan mat salah keje kat sana semua kasar. Dia belum tgk lagi org Malaysia keje mcm mana. Mat saleh pun leh respek.

Sudahlah....ingat ni tahun 2008. Bukannya tahun 1957. Bukannya 1980. Kepala '19' tu pun dah tak wujud dah. Bukalah pemikiran kita sikit. Kalau dulu kita fikir mcm mana nak majukan bangsa kita, sekarang ni kita sendiri kena fikir mcm mana nak bersaing dengan masyarakat global plak. Bukannya nak cari alasan negatif. Asal kena hantar oversea je..susah lah..jauh la...apelah.... dari awal lagi nak mengalah. Donald Trump sendiri pernah cakap kat aku (melalui rancangan tv la...), nak berjaya kena ketepikan perasaan takut untuk nak ami risiko. Risiko adalah kejayaan dan keberanian bukannya tak play safe je.

Nasihat aku lah kat pakcik-pakcik tu dan kesemua pembaca blogger lain termasuk diri aku sendiri ni, jgnlah wujud lagi pemikiran kita yg kolot ni. Tak salah kita nak berhati-hati dalam membuat keputusan tapi jgn sesekali meletakkan suatu alasan yg tak munasabah untuk mengelak dari apa yg kita nak buat. Sebab tu bangsa lain boleh maju. Bukan cina saja tapi bangsa lain dalam dunia ni. Sanggup amik risiko.

Macam bapak aku sendiri cakap. Kenapa ulat dalam batu boleh hidup? Sebab...ulat tu sendiri amik risiko nak hidup dalam batu dan dia sendiri usaha nak menyesuaikan diri dia duduk dalam batu tu. Kalaulah manusia tak boleh jagi mcm ulat, baik ita jagi kuman je. Sebab kuman takde otak..kehkehekeh.....

Kisah persidangan dewan parlimen akan bersambung esok pukul 9 malam kat warung kopi Bayan Baru...(bukan kat Pokok Cheri). Yang pasti aku takkan join diorang ni sebab aku kebetulan lepak sana dengan member aku. Lagi pun takde masa nak lepak kat sana kalu setakat nak 'bombang' mende remeh sedangkan bayak lagi perkara lain boleh buat.....

Whats wrong with the words??

Hey..this is in NOT unusual 'A different Side of Me'. Peoples always get confused by that words when they visit my blog. Those my friends who always visit sometimes get confused.

What's wrong with it? It's nothing weird to put or use that words in my blog. I had been use is almost for 3 years (perhaps..).

They always ask me..sometimes the email me asking about that word "What is so different about you? Are you trying to tell us that you are not who you are? Do you have a 'dark side' in yourself??"

Well.. the truth is NO. It is just a simple words trying to tell you readers that this is my thoughts, my perception, my ideas and everything that always in my mind. It doesn't meant something that I'm hiding for. "A different side of me " tell you guys about me myself who always have another thoughts that maybe I'm not showing in front of you. In a simple words, this blog tell the truths about myself. Everything. ( Sometimes there a reason to keep secret and privacy..)
This blog tell you guys about what I'm not telling other people about my opinion, thoughts, or something that I need to tell to you but not if front of you.

There are a few guys ask me. "It this means that you are GAY? Because the sentence "A diffrerent side of me" tell that you have a different perspective or personality that averybody don't know."

Haha,...the truth is I'm NOT gay and that sentence doesn't meant that word at all !!

See..different people with a different perceptions. I think I had explain enough more than I need to. There is no more -ve perception after this. Hopefully. It is hard to stop other people mouth to keep quite or to satisfy them. But again, hopefully this will be the last time I'm writing the blog to explain.

Rabmlings of a mute

I know I'm a gaijin to some people they see me. From my appearance to my my languages, they don't see me as a true Penangites. But still, I don't go out the causing a riot or intensionally to make piss you of just because I'm what I'm. It is not fair to judge someone just in short time without knowing him/her (especially me indeed).

I'm don't understand for what they what. Is it means that if I'm Penangites I have to act that I'm the person who born in Penang? Pretty sure that it is suppose not to be like that. So please, not bothering to deliver orders or being resentful just because you don’t bother to explore your own ‘country’ are petty excuses to make me feel unwelcome.

It is never funny when people say something about "Penang go home !" or intend to treat me as a foreigners or what so ever they called it. It is a shameful to see our own blood of melayu 'kita' say the bad things to other malays. It is not about racist, but it is disrespectful attitudes for Malaysia people treats to other Malaysian. The truth is, we are not the same blood. We have to admit it. But we are brothers. Band of brothers that Islam always say in holy Quran.

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I’ve spoken to many people in the past 24 hours, analyzing very limited options that I have. Jess and Ain think that the best way for me is go ahead with my argument - to challenge my ideas and go away to my comfort zone in terms of my work and my career.

Chances always in front of me, it is me myself need to play a big roll in my life. It is only a risk as my big barrier. It is not that I can’t do the job, it is where I’m supposed to be when I do it.

Since that last few weeks, I was contemplating life as a bum. Now I have to prepare myself for another topsy turvy journey.


I am dreading the weekend papers…

Sekilas pandang....

Terima kasih kepada semua kawan aku yg hantar email kat aku, msg kat shout, sms aku dan banyak lagi kerana memberi sokongan kepada aku untuk mengaktifkan kembali blog aku. Blog aku ni tak seberapa kalau nak dibandingkan dengan blog Niety dan Kay. Dioranglah sumber inspirasi aku. Dan aku nak ucapkan terima kasih kat Ali yg telah berjaya meracun aku untuk mewujudkan tycooncyber.blogspot.com.

Sebenarnya, bagi aku bukan soal betapa kerapnya kta publish blog kita. Bagi aku sendiri isi dalam blog kita. Yeap..mmg betul setiap org tak sama dalam mencorakkan blog masing-masing. terpulang pada diri sendiri.

Aku mulanya agak keberatan nak sambung kembali laman blog aku yg kat 2 tahun aku biar. Hampir menjadi tukun blog aku ni. Org kata..aura nak menulis blog ni mmg dah hilang tapi sejak bertemu dengan Anis yg dah lama aku tak jumpa, dia asyik mintak aku tlg ajarkan mcm mana nak buat blog ni. Secara tak langsung, aku dah mula berminat nak menulis blog.

Maaf buat semua pembaca blog aku. ( Aku takde pembaca setia..sebab blog aku mmg tak best..) Mungkin inti blog aku ni dah tak sama mcm dulu. Dulu..hampir setiap hari aku menulis. Sekarang ni..komitmen terhadap kerja dan aku masih menyambung pelajaran aku, aku terpaksa menghadkan peluang yg ada.

Aku dah jumpa minat baru aku. Selain menghentam pc aku ni ke tahap maksima dengan main Pc game, aku lebih banyak masuk laman blog politik. Tak pernahnya aku minat bab politik ni sangat. Tapi sejak tsunami politik melanda dalam PRU 12 dan harga barang semakin naik, mendorong aku untuk menyibuk di blog-blog penasihat kerajaan yg tak bergaji ni. Baru diorang tau kan betapa kuatnya pengaruh blog dalam menentukan aurs politik kita sendiri.

Aku tak nafikan aku banyak menimba ilmu bila aku baca blog-blog diorang ni. Isu bangsalah, isu sekelilinglah...mmg banyak. Terutama beberapa bloggers yg aku selalu masuk dalam laman blog diorang mmg lantang bersuara. Kadang2 aku terpikir gak, kenapa lah diorang mcm ni tak nak masuk je politik? Jadi ketua yg bagus. Kan best tu...setidak- tidak pun apa yg diorang suarakan pendapat diorang dalam blog tu mendapat sedikit perhatian dari pihak pemimpin.

Hari tu, aku tgk secara life persidangan parlimen. Agak menyedihkan bagi aku kerana aku sendiri tak menyangka betapa buruknya sesetengah sikap pemimpin kita yg membuat kacau-bilau dalam parlimen tu. Bukan aku nak compare dengan negara lain. Tapi aku pernah tgk persidangan parlimen dalam House of Commons. Walaupun berlaku gak ketegangan dalam parlimen, tapi isu yg diorang bangkitkan dalam tu bukannya remeh temeh. Bukannya isu kenapa tak angkat tangan, kenapa buat bising, kenapa takdak soalan tambahan. Yg pasti dalam parlimen sendiri takde langsung ayat 'monyet' dikeluarkan. Apa nak jadi ngan diorang? Mcm ni ke pemimpin kita sekarang? parlimen bukannya pasar, bukannya collesium, bukannya mahkamah. Parlimen adalah tempat untuk bersidang nak menyelesaikan masalah rakyat.

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Stop bab pasal parlimen/politik.

Last week, aku pegi jumpa member aku. Lepas jumpa member aku, jumpa plak makcik aku. Tiap kali borak je ngan makcik aku, mesti punya dia tanya soal kawin. Soalan maut/soalan lazim : Bila nak kawin?? Dengan sapa nak kawin?? Dah simpan duit nak kawin?? Ada calon nak kawin ??

Alahai makcik aku ni.....ni yg maleh nak jumpa ni. Sebenarnya, sekarang pun aku nak kawin. Aha...Bila nak kawin? sekarang bole makcik. Dengan sapa nak kawin?? tu makcik kena tunggu dulu. Dah simpan duit nak kawin?? Dah tapi tak cukup sket..nak pinjam duit makcik boleh?? kehkehkeh...

Punyalah dok sibuk dok kerja...sampai lupa nak kawin...tu kata makcik akulah..sibuk ke kerja ?? tak jugak. Sebab setiap hari boleh balik ont ime. Cuma aku je yg kurang berusaha nak cari jodoh aku. Insyallah kalau ada jodoh..adalah tu... ;)