(~~~~)

(~~~~)

8:00 a.m. (Malaysia) She called when I'm still drive high by the sweet dreams. I heard her voice trough the phone. And I knew something was wrong. Honestly, it makes me more worry than anybody else. Coz the last 6 hours ago before I get into sleep, we chat. Everything seems fine. We chat, laugh, making jokes, same nasty jokes. Or even we talk everything just like usual. I asked her. "Honey, is there anything ok there?" She pause with a thousand of questions come out in my mind. "Yes. Don't U worry ok. I'm fine here. I'll let u know if there's anything I would talk."

I'm still not comfort or truly say that I'm not trust with her answer. I knew something was wrong but I can't push or ask her to tell me. I always remind her, puts something some 'reminder' inside her head. "If u had something to talk to, or something to discuss, please let me be the firat one to hear that."

I believe that is a good enough for her to remind that I'm always keep my word and I'm always keep for what I'm saying.

I ask her "What's wrong honey? Is there anyhing you like to talk to? I knew something that you are trying to say. Please, let me know."

As usual, the 'silent mode' - she will use every time I ask her.

"Nothing...............just want to talk to you. I feel soo lonely here and I knew I can't see you for along time after this. You know what I mean rite?"

"Yeap..but it doesn't mean that we can't meet anymore. I know about it and we have to face it. It just for a 4 weeks. Nothing else more than that. And I believe that we had been for far away for a month and we can still contact."

She cried. The silent of the morning, the tears of her makes me feel soo sad. Soo sad.

"Honey, be strong ok. Nothing much I can't give to you except my pray, my love and my loyalty. Please remember we had been trough far teribble like this and we can still cope. I knew this time is quite different. Yes I knew. But this is a test from Allah that we have to face it. U have me. U have your family and u have my family. U have alot of friends always be with you and support you. For what happens, don't forget Allah and ask Allah to protect you. That is the best for you. I can't go there because we are to far away. The distance is our main obstacles but trust me, I never ever forget you. And I always pray for you. Just one month ok..just one month. I'll come back after you settle doing your job and came back from Australia. I'm promise. I'll meet you. I'll be the first person you see when you reach here."

"Thanx....."

I try to comfort her. As usual I try to cheer her back. We talk..again just like we chat like before....

See....

If you ask me, which one 's the best? Long distance relationship or 'short' distance relationship- where you can see your love one everyday, having nice and romantic dinner together, hangout and chills.

But me? I'm taking the other way which I choose a long distance relationship. All the privelage, I had to sacrifece, but believe me, you will learn alot of things and you will learn to be more loyalty, honest and the main thing is, you'll know what the word sacrifice mean.

I never regret for what I did. Far for a 3 hundred kilometers away from her. And she never regret for hat she did. But the thing is, we...yes we..we still learn how to mix and make comfort with this things.

And I never regret for what I have. Her. She may not be the first one, but hopefully she will be the last person I love. She's soo unic, special and she is a gift from Allah for me.

Well, of course I'm proud of her, for what happens to her, she can still stand with her own feet and try to be independent. And she is now starting to learn how to cope something with her ownself.

I'm not cruel. Yes, I have to admitt that we are helping each other. And to be honest, she had help me alot. Nothing can compare her sacrifiece, her understanding and her loyalty.

Honey...

If you read this means that you had heard what I said. Be strong for what ever happens. Always remember Allah and never ever give up. There is no word 'loneliness' for you. It just there is no someone besides you.

Always remember, you have alot of friends support you. You have a wonderful family, you have my family that will always take care of you, you have your best friends that will always besides you, and you have me- that always will love you forever.